I have accepted the fact
that my parents are clueless. I am serene. I will betray not a tremor
when they offer opinions or advice, no matter how laughable. My
soul will be light as a feather when my mother elbows her way to
the front of my college tour and talks the guide's ear off. I am
serene.
Going to college is a stressful time for my parents, even though
they are not the ones going. I recognize that neurosis is beyond
anyone's control. Each week, I will calmly reassure them that I
am working on my essays, have registered for my tests, am finishing
my applications, have scheduled my interviews, am aware of all deadlines,
and will have everything done in plenty of time. I will smile good-naturedly
as my parent asks four follow-up questions at College Night.
I will try not to say "no" simply because my parents
say "yes," and remain open to the possibility, however
improbable, that they may have a point. I may not be fully conscious
of my anxieties about the college search - the fear of being judged
and the fear of leaving home are both strong. I don't really want
to get out of here as much as I say I do, and it is easier to put
off thinking about the college search than to get it done. My parents
are right about the importance of being proactive, even if they
do get carried away.
Though the college search belongs to me, I will listen to my parents.
They know me better than anyone else, and they are the ones who
will pay most of the bills. Their ideas about what will be best
for me are based on years of experience in the real world. I will
seriously consider what they say as I form my own opinions.
I must take charge of the college search. If I do, the nagging
will stop, and everyone's anxiety will go down. My parents have
given me a remarkable gift - the ability to think and do for myself.
I know I can do it with a little help from Mom and Dad. |