I am resigned to the fact
that my child's college search will end in disaster. I am serene.
Deadlines will be missed and scholarships will be lost as my child
lounges under pulsating headphones or stares transfixed at a Game
Cube. I am a parent and I know nothing. I am serene.
Confronted with endless procrastination, my impulse it to take
control - to register for tests, plan visits, schedule interviews,
and get applications. It was I who asked those four follow-up questions
at College Night - I couldn't help myself. And yet I know that everything
will be fine if I can summon the fortitude to relax. My child is
smart, capable, and perhaps a little too accustomed to me jumping
in and fixing things. I will hold back. I will drop hints and encourage,
then back off. I will facilitate rather than dominate. The college
search won't happen on my schedule, but it will happen.
I will not get too high or low about any facet of the college search.
By doing so, I give it more importance than it really has. My child's
self-worth may already be too wrapped up in getting an acceptance
letter. I will attempt to lessen the fear rather than heighten it.
I will try not to say "no" simply because my son or daughter
says "yes," and remain open to the possibility, however
improbable, that my child has the most important things under control.
I understand that my anxiety comes partly from a sense of impending
loss. I can feel my child slipping away. Sometimes I hold on too
tightly or let social acceptability cloud the issue of what is best.
I realize that my child is almost ready to go and that a little
rebellion at this time of life can be a good thing. I will respect
and encourage independence, even if some of it is expressed as resentment
toward me. I will make suggestions with care and try to avoid unnecessary
confrontation.
Paying for college is my responsibility. I will take a major role
in the search for financial aid and scholarships and speak honestly
to my child about the financial realities we face.
I must help my son or daughter take charge of the college search.
I will try to support without smothering, encourage without annoying,
and consult without controlling. The college search is too big to
be handled alone - I will be there every step of the way.
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